This is Us, episode fifteen

Rebecca is in the car at the hotel. She blows the horn. No one comes out. She finds an envelope with tickets to a game. Flashback to when they first bought the car. They planned to get something cheap and affordable but Jack sees how much the kids like the Wagoneer.

The kids come out of the hotel. Kevin is off his crutches. They don’t understand why they have to go so early but Rebecca just tells them that she wants to. Jack buys the Wagoneer. He tells Rebecca that they can do it and the kids are thrilled.

It’s time for the kids to go to their first concert. Rebecca and Jack are taking them to see Weird Al and they are happy. Rebecca has a bit of an issue on the way though because they end up in construction traffic on the bridge she is afraid of. The kids and Jack sing and distract her.

On the ride to the service, Kevin doesn’t understand why they have to go so early. Kate doesn’t either but she also mentions that she doesn’t want to keep her dog anymore. Jack and Rebecca leave a doctors visit. She’s been dizzy but it’ll take a bit to get the results so she is freaking out. She thinks it is a brain tumor.

He takes her to see his favorite tree and tries to reassure her. She asks why it’s his favorite tree and he tells her because that’s where she finds out she’s okay. His pager goes off. Her results are in. She’s okay. They keep talking and he tells her he doesn’t want to go in the ground when he dies.

They get to funeral. A few people talk including Miguel and Randall but Rebecca zones out until the end. Then she grabs the urn and heads to the reception. Jack is teaching the boys how to drive and they start to argue. He makes them both walk the five miles home and then tells them that he hopes they figure out how to be friends like he and his brother were.

Randall is surprised to hear him talk about his past at all and Jack tells them that someday they will only have each other and Kate to remember things as they were and they should care about that. At the reception Kevin notices that Randall has on Jack’s watch. He confronts him and Randall tells him that Rebecca said he could so Kevin goes to see her about it.

She doesn’t say much before Kevin turns back to Randall and yells at him for not being a real man and stopping Jack like he would’ve and Randall goes right back at him, pointing out that he wasn’t around. He’s never around.

Jack is driving on a Thursday morning when he sees Kate sitting at the bus stop. He stops and she explains that she is going to see her favoritist person ever Alanis Morissette. He tells her to get in the car. She thinks he’s taking her back to school but he takes her to the record store instead. They compare Alanis to Bruce Springsteen along the way and he tells her to consider music as a path. They get to the record store and she hops out.

It’s the night of the fire. Kate can’t sleep. Rebecca finds her awake and they talk about how Jack died. Kate keeps saying that it’s because he went back inside but Rebecca won’t say that it is. Rebecca is outside the reception getting air when Dr. K walks up. They talk about Jack and then she admits she’s been chasing his urn around all day because she wasn’t with him when he died. She can’t do it without him but Dr. K assures her she’ll be able to.

The family is headed home with groceries for the Super Bowl. Jack announces that no one can make plans for the following Saturday. He has a surprise for them. He won’t tell what it is. Rebecca is done with the reception. She rounds up the kids and they leave. They head to the favorite tree and Rebecca starts to talk about Jack.

She tells the boys that neither of them have to be the man of the house. She tells Kate to not blame herself. They spread the ashes there but not all of them because Kate wants some. Then Rebecca tells them that she knows the surprise. Jack got them Bruce tickets and asks if they want to go. The kids say yes.

Jack tells the car salesman that he can’t afford the car but he needs it. It’s sturdy and will survive the family and tell their story. He wants to do right by them and he wants them to be okay. He sees them okay in that car. And they are. Rebecca drives over the bridge as Kevin and Randall bond in the backseat. They will be okay.

It’s called a repass not a reception for a funeral. That drove me nuts. Otherwise this was a great episode. I loved that the car told the story of the family. It’ll get beaten but it will not fall. I feel bad for Rebecca but the talk from Dr. K was great. I like him.


This is Us, episode fourteen

Jack wakes up and has a drink of water. He notices smoke and opens the door. The house is on fire. He yells to Randall and Kate. They each open their doors, see the flames and panic. He tells them to close their doors.

He sends Rebecca into their bathroom to wet towels. Jack is freaking out about Kevin but Rebecca tells him that Kevin isn’t at the house. He goes to get Randall and brings him back to their room. He tells Randall that if he’s not back soon to take Rebecca out. Jack goes for Kate. He gets there but the blaze is worse.

Kate is freaking out but Jack tries to calm her down. He grabs the mattress and uses it as shield to get them back. The four of them climb out the window and Jack lowers them from the porch roof. The dog barks from inside so Jack goes back for it.

As the house gets further consumed, the three of them freak out until Jack and the dog come out the front door. Jack gets treated and told to head to the ER for smoke inhalation. He stayed in too long. He actually swiped some photo albums and stuff too. They find out Kevin and Sophie snuch out and come up with a plan. Take this kids to Miguel’s and then Jack to the ER. It’s a good plan.

Twenty years later, Kate watches the tape from the last day with her dad. She finds it cathartic, she tells Toby so when the VCR eats it, she freaks out but Toby knows a guy. Meanwhile in Jersey, Kevin and Rebecca talk. He drinks on Super Bowl Sunday and she eats lasagna. Jack also sends her a laugh, she says.

Randall celebrates though. He has a big party for the kids, who don’t care. One is playing with a lizard and the other is acting sketchy about the phone. Beth tries to reason with him but he just says that they need some boys. Speaking of, there’s a little boy that’s about to be placed with a foster family.

Kevin tries some yoga and meditation. He looks through old momentos. Randall gets way into the game, and Beth tries to explain it to their guests. One of the girls announces that her pet lizard escaped. They all start looking for it. Beth ducks into the kitchen to answer the phone and steps on the lizard in the process.

At the hospital, Jack gets a fairly clean bill of health. Not too much swelling in his throat and some cream for the burns. After the doctor leaves, they talk about the day the kids were born and making the most of sour lemons. Jack jokes around though because he has everything he needs with the family. Rebecca leaves the room to make hotel reservations and to get some snacks.

Rebecca makes her lasagna. Randall holds a lizard funeral. As he talks, he thinks about Jack. Beth cuts him off. Toby and Kate get to the VCR guy. He tells Toby he might not be able to do that. Toby relays that to Kate and she tells him that she has the right to beat herself up about this because it’s her fault.

As if she isn’t stressed enough, Rebecca has to fight with the hotel about the rooms. While she is on the phone with first them and then with Kate, something happens behind her. The doctors and nurses all go running. She wraps up her calls and goes to the vending machine.

She buys her snack and turns around. The doctor is there. He asks her to sit and explains to her that Jack died of cardiac arrest because of the stress from the smoke. She doesn’t believe him and goes into Jack’s room. His body is still there.

Eventually Rebecca gets to Miguel’s house. He meets her outside and asks where Jack is. She tells him about the heart attack and he starts getting upset. She tells him that he can’t do that because she has to go in and ruin her kid’s lives. She goes in and tells them. They freak out. Kevin is blissfully unaware of any of it as he sleeps with Sophie in a car.

Kevin goes and talks to Jack at the place where his funeral was. He talks about how he’s had a rough go of it and how the way he’s acted wouldn’t make anyone proud. He’s going to do better though, he promises.

Kate decides that she has to be the one to tell Kevin. Adult Kate tells Toby about her dad and how he was the constant for the family. She didn’t think they would rebound or that maybe the family would but she wouldn’t. She didn’t think she was worth it until Toby turned up. She tells him that Jack would have loved him.

Rebecca goes back to the house and sits in the car out front crying. Kate tracks down Kevin and tells him and they cry. Rebecca is eating her lasagna when the phone rings. It’s Kevin. He tells her that she was so strong when it happened. She tells him that she had tried so hard. He lets her know that he has to try too. Then he tells her that he doesn’t know if she’s in the right spot and she laughs. This year Jack sent her Kevin.

Randall talks to his older daughter and she admits that she’s been messing with the phone because then the foster people can’t call. She tells him that she feels like he is trying to get a whole new life with William and Deja and the new job and all.

He tells her that that isn’t the case at all and that he loves her and seh will always be his number one and that she will live with them until she is 25 and then they will get dinner once a week after that. She laughs. Beth answers the phone. It’s someone she wasn’t expecting to hear from but she’s happy.

The little boy is about to be placed with a foster family. The social worker gives him a pep talk and then introduces him to a couple. As she watches, her co-worker comes over and tells her that her dad is there. She turns around. It’s Randall. This is Tess all grown up, as a social worker. Beth finds out the mystery caller is actually at the house. It’s Deja. They let her in and talk to her.

Maybe it was in my head but it sounded like someone said “Bec” while she was at the vending machine. This was really sad but I feel like them coping will probably be even worse. I feel bad for Rebecca for having to tell the kids and all. And I feel bad for Randall because he just tries so hard.

This is Us, episode thirteen

An older couple is cleaning out their garage. The house is on the market and has been for months but with no nibbles. They reminisce as they go. Rebecca goes into her bedroom and where Jack is still in bed. It’s a big day, Super Bowl Sunday.

He talks about his new business idea. Start small with construction work while he’s still working at his other job. This is their last Super Bowl as a family so they plan to make the most of it. Starting with orange juice shots.

Beth is in the kitchen where Randall’s phone is blowing up. Kevin is texting him but Randall has other priorities. They have their first tenant meeting but she wants him to slow his roll. He says he will keep it in check.

Toby is looking at something online. Kate walks in and he hides it so she assumes its porn and teases him before swiping the computer. It’s not. It’s a dog adoption site. He wants a dog but knows how she is so he’s not pressuring her.

Jack is fixing the entertainment unit and wants Kevin’s opinion. It keeps him busy but Kevin can’t be bothered to help or comment other than to be nasty. During the tenant meeting, Randall does not slow his roll. He agrees to fix a ton of stuff and Kevin shows up to help.

Young Randall is decorating cookies with the girl he likes. Kevin sits in the corner snarking for a while. Kate is nervous about her letter from college. She is in the final round of applicants and has to submit another audition piece.

Kevin and Randall go to town on the repair work in the apartment building. They take out walls and fix plumbing and heaters. Adult Kate goes to the dog shelter. Young Kate is rehearsing for her audio submission. Jack sneaks up on her but she is still not remotely interested in a video. Randall ditches the Super Bowl to go to the movies.

Kate is outside with her dog when Jack tries to talk to her. She doesn’t want to hear it though and blows him off. Adult Randall and Kevin are doing work at the apartment building. Randall even calls Beth to brag but he is getting ahead of himself. They’ve got a roach problem.

Rebecca tries to cheer Kevin up about community college when he finds out Sophie got into NYU. He doesn’t want to hear it though and leaves the house. He was supposed to play in the Super Bowl, not watch it. Kate watches the tape Jack made of her singing.

She is going to adopt a dog. She fills out the forms and is talking to the person at the shelter but when she gets a minute alone she can’t do it and takes off. Randall clears the tenants out of the building so it can be tented. He and Kevin have a heart to heart about Jack and making amends and growing older.

Jack is ready for the game when Kate comes in. She tells him she watched the tape and wants him to keep trying to encourage her. Then she heads out to a Super Bowl party. Rebecca comes in with food and a real estate listing. She’s on board with the business and found a place.

He is thrilled and asks her to be his business partner. She hesitates but is convinced soon enough. They head up to their room to take advantage of the empty house.

Randall has the tenants in a hotel lobby waiting for rooms when Beth gets there. She gets sassy with him about working together and slowing his roll. He sees the error of his ways.

Kevin calls Rebecca and talks about hurting Jack’s feelings. She suggests he come watch the end of the game but Kevin would rather sleep on the couch at Sophie’s house. He hangs up and mentions a party in the woods.

Sophie gets home to find Rebecca waiting outside her apartment. He’s there to make amends. She suggests that to make amends he leave her alone and let her remember him when things were good. He tells her she wasn’t just A name, she was THE name.

Toby is on the computer when Kate comes in. She tells him about her day at the shelter and how she stressed. He seems a little disappointed but then she turns the story around. She went back for the dog!

Meanwhile, Kevin gets home to find a package. It’s his necklace. He sent Charlotte a make amends letter and she sent him back the necklace. Kate is in her bed listening to headphones. Rebecca and Jack are in bed as well when he hears a noise. He heads downstairs. Randall is home.

They talk about his date. Randall kissed her. It was great. Jack makes sure that Randall was a gentleman and he confirms that he was before heading to bed. Jack cleans up the kitchen, leaves a note for Kevin and then heads to bed.

The old man from the beginning has a buyer for the house so he gives a younger Jack and Rebecca their crockpot. It’s the same one Rebecca used for Super Bowl chili and after Jack shuts everything down it shorts and starts a fire. A dishtowel goes first, then the curtains, a wall, and soon enough the flames are heading upstairs.

I didn’t think it would be the fire that killed Jack. Also, everyone except Kevin was home but no one else was hurt? Why would Kate feel guilty and have dog trauma? He must go back for it right? This Super Bowl episode will be awful.

This is Us, episode twelve

There is a cat on the loose on the street. Jack is doing some wood working. Apparently he’s making shelves in the garage for Kate. He tells her about them. Kate interrupts. She needs a dress and wants to go to the mall. She asks Rebecca, who is thrilled to take her.

Jack needs to go too and when he catches Kevin moping so he turns it into a family trip. Randall is helping his kids with homework when Beth comes in. She just got some bad news from work. She checks in that he is okay and ready for his job interview. He tells her he is but not to get too excited because the job doesn’t “get his juices flowing.” Before the interview, he has to head to William’s place to pick up a box.

After getting discharged, Kevin goes to stay with Rebecca and Miguel. He walks in and sees signs of their life together. He doesn’t seem thrilled about it. It’s time for the family trip to the mall. Kate is trying on dresses while Kevin and Jack look for the suit store. They run into Miguel who is feeling sorry for himself because his ex just got engaged.

Kevin scoffs when Jack goes into pep talk mode. He says that sometimes guys just want to wallow and Miguel backs him up. They head to the food court instead of the suit shop. Randall walks the mall alone. He sees a girl he likes.

Adult Randall picks up the box of William’s stuff. He also asks after William’s cat. Apparent;y the cat wandered off a few weeks earlier. Back in the car Randall looks into the box. It’s full of poetry and artwork about a woman.

Rebecca and Kevin chat in the grocery store for a while. Kevin tells her he lost the necklace from his father and she tries to make him feel better. Miguel turns up and ruins the moment.

At the mall food court, Kevin talks about how watching football makes him feel like crap. Randall shows up and seems rather sullen as well. Jack tells the boys that they have to own their decisions. In the grocery store, Kevin confronts Miguel about crashing their outing. Miguel tells him that he is trying to protect Rebecca from him.

Randall goes through William’s apartment building trying to find the mystery lady. He ends up posting a note on the bulletin board. Kate goes wedding dress shopping with someone from her eating support group. Randall goes to see Beth at work. He tells her about the poetry and she tells him that she is happy for him but she needs him to get a job.

Kate and her friend are looking at dresses when the friend excuses herself to the bathroom. Kate assumes that she is purging after feasting on desserts. The chick doesn’t like being called out and leaves Kate there.

Kevin finds Miguel and Rebecca watching TV. He comes in and Rebecca leaves to make tea. Kevin apologizes for what happened at the store and then asks if Miguel loved his mother before Jack died. Miguel explains that he didn’t but he loves her now and he’s not going anywhere.

While doing some online dress shopping, Kate gets a call. It’s about her friend Madison. She goes to her house and finds her crying in the bathroom. Rebecca finds Kate in the mall. The dress she was trying on didn’t fit and she is cranky.

Randall goes back to William’s building. He heard from someone who William was friendly with the super so he thinks that might be the mystery woman. She’s not but she lets him walk around William’s old place. He realizes that all the art was about Billie Holliday and that there was a mural outside William’s window.

Madison passed out and hit her head. She’s bleeding and Kate cleans her up. Madison tells her story and Kate tells hers. Right before Jack died, she lost a lot of weight and realized she didn’t know what to do when she wasn’t mad at herself. Madison tells her they are best friends.

Beth indulges Randall and takes a ride with him. He brings her to William’s building. He wants to buy it and change the lives of the residents with Beth. Teen Randall asks out a girl. Kevin and Jack try on suits.

Kevin and Rebecca have a heart to heart about her relationship with Miguel. He wants her to be happy. She has that with Miguel. After the mall Jack decides that it’s time to start his own construction company after all. Rebecca thinks it is a bad idea but he’s going to do it anyway.

This felt like filler. They settled the situation with Kevin and Miguel and they set up a real estate project for Randall and Beth but overall it just seemed like set up for other episodes about Jack.

This is Us, episode eleven

Kate and Rebecca are playing monopoly. Randall marvels at his ability to see the board from across the room. He likes his glasses even though he knows he will get teased at school. Jack gets home. He’s got exciting news. They are going on vacation. Rebecca is less than thrilled that he just sprung this on her.

Adult Kate is freaking out to Toby about the fact that she hasn’t talked to Kevin in a month. He’s been in rehab. They are headed out to see him but before they leave Toby goes to take the garbage out. The bag rips and he discovers that Kate cheated on her diet and lied about it.

Beth is checking with the girls to make sure they will be okay while she and Randall are at the rehab. She does not want to visit Kevin. She is very angry. Randall is too but Kevin was there for him when he was at his lowest.

Randall and Beth are at the rehab, along with Rebecca and Miguel. Kate and Toby come in and its hugs all around. That’s when Kevin makes his entrance, and an entrance it is since he is “Mr. Rehab” as Beth points out.

Kevin introduces the others to his therapist Barbara and is ready to start their session. Barbara (Kate Burton aka Ellis Grey) suggests that they start with immediate family. Toby is surprised but Beth jumps at the chance to get out of their.

The Pearson family is on vacation. Kevin joins them after football camp. Rebecca warns him not to tease Randall about his glasses. She’s also concerned about Kate’s junk food intake. Jack and Kevin are playing catch. Jack is trying to get Kate to run around too but she whines and then he basically calls her fat.

She runs off and he chases her. Kevin gets annoyed and throws the ball at Randall. Rebecca grounds him. Present day rehab therapy is mostly just polite until therapist Barbara calls them on it. Kate assumes Kevin’s addiction is related to greif. It’s not. Things weren’t great before Jack died.

Toby, Beth and Miguel go out to drink and talk about handling the Pearsons. They have all sorts of “no fly zones,” the biggest being Jack. Miguel laughs along for a bit but does tell Beth she is toeing a line when she talks about Jack.

Apparently a kid up the block called Kate fat. Now she wants to know if Jack thinks so too. Randall can’t find his glasses. Rebecca thinks Kevin took them and calls him on it. He tells her he hates her and that the family sucks.

In therapy Kevin tells them he felt like a fifth wheel and that this was only a matter of time because he is an addict. Barbara wants to talk about Jack being an addict but Rebecca takes issue with that. Kevin points out that Kate might be addicted to food and then he goes to lay into Rebecca but Randall steps in.

He’s been quiet so far but now he’s pissed. Kevin is just addicted to attention, he says. Then Kevin low blows and brings up Randall’s kids. He goes to storm out and Rebecca follows so Kevin calls him the favorite again.

That’s when Rebecca snaps. Randall isn’t the favorite. He was just easier. He wasn’t a sullen teenager and never recoiled at her touch and didn’t abandon her when his father died. She sits back down crying.

The others are day drinking on family day. Miguel wants cheese fries and Beth is game but Toby can’t do it. He admits he found the junk food and Kate didn’t tell him. She’ll probably tell one of the Pearsons on the inside.

Miguel isn’t on the outside. He’s even further out because he married his best friend’s wife. The Pearsons went through something together and that’s why they are on the inside.

Jack and Kate make an entrance into the cabin. It’s raining. He took her for ice cream. Rebecca isn’t surprised. She’s always the bad guy. Adult Kevin is sitting on a bench. Kate joins him. They talk about Toby crying and Jack being a part of all this.

Randall turns up. He tells Kevin that he was there for him and didn’t come to rehab to shit on his childhood. The siblings have a moment. Kate and Toby talk. She tells him that she has been eating junk and feels bad about lying to him.

Rebecca tries to give young Kevin dinner on the porch. He ignores her. That night he wakes up because of a thunderstorm. He finds Randall’s glasses under the bed. He brings them to his mother and finds both of his siblings in bed with his parents. He pulls a pillow and blanket to the floor and goes to bed.

Adult Kevin gets to his room and finds Rebecca waiting for him. She talks about telling the others that they had to be like Kevin. He tells her that he didn’t have an unhappy childhood but she says it’s not as happy as she thought.

The storm rages outside. It wakes Rebecca up. She sees Kevin asleep on the floor. She gets out of bed and lays down with him instead.

I think that Randall has a point. Kevin seems to need to be coddled. He has no leg to stand on with the whole why was the kid in the car thing. She was a little kid and she just climbed in her cool uncle’s car. She wasn’t looking to escape. Beth cracked me up in this one. I liked that the three of them bonded.

This is Us, episode ten

Randall is stoked for Thanksgiving. He sends the little ones to bed and then checks in on Deja. She’s getting ready for a big presentation at school. She thinks the other kids are going to mock her but Randall tells her that he’s proud of her. They hear a ruckus outside. Beth is out there fighting with Deja’s mom. She’s out because they dropped the charges. Deja comes out and calms her down. They need to wait for the social worker though.

It’s the night of the Pitt coach’s visit. Randall is filling out college applications. He wants to check out Howard too and asks Jack if they can. Jack says that he will check with Rebecca but Randall is stoked.

Social worker Linda is over explaining the ins and outs. She is going to recommend that Deja go back to her mother. Randall says that they will fight it and that they’ve already contacted a lawyer. Young Randall is ready to go. He’s nervous but excited.

On the drive to school, the little ones ask about what’s what with Deja. Randall says he doesn’t know. Jack and Randall get to Howard and Randall meets up with a friend. They look around while Jack takes the official tour. Randall seems to enjoy himself.

As Randall drops Deja off at school, he tells her that he and Beth will be by to watch her presentation. Then he calls Beth and she tells him that they can see the lawyer that evening. And they thought last year would be the crazy Thanksgiving. Randall flashes back to his Thanksgiving conversation with William the year prior.

William explains the visits he had from Rebecca and why he never tried to meet him when he was younger. Who was he to go against Rebecca’s wishes? It’s time to leave Howard. Randall is bummed to head out. On the ride back Jack and Randall talk about how out-of-place Randall often feels in his life because of color of his skin.

Jack decides to make a stop. They go to DC and Jack talks about being drafted to Nam and finding balance. Jack wants Randall to know that he will find himself through his choices and that he is spectacular.

Randall checks out Deja’s mom before going to the school. He tells Beth that they can’t keep Deja from her mom. Then he makes a very bleak Pac-man metaphor but Beth gets it. They go in and watch Deja give her presentation.

It’s time for Deja to go home. Randall gets a phone call. It’s Kevin. He’s on his way to the house. Randall says its fine but he’s distracted. He tries to offer his help to Deja’s mom but she’s got it from here. Deja says her emotional goodbyes. Inside the house, Randall does dishes and Beth cleans up Deja’s room.

Kevin is freaking out in the teacher’s yard. Rebecca gets to Kate’s house. She calls Randall and tells him about the baby. Kevin gets to Randall’s house. They head into the kitchen and Kevin starts drinking. Randall mentions that Rebecca and Kate are staying in LA for the holiday. Then he decides to call Kate.

He asks if Kevin wants to try with him but Kevin declines. While Randall is on the phone, Kevin takes off. Randall talks to Beth about fostering again. Maybe a boy this time. Kevin drives recklessly.

Jack and Randall talk about how things will be different for Kevin post-knee injury but he’ll be okay. Adult Randall can’t find his daughter. She pops up in the back of Kevin’s car just as he gets pulled over.

Beth gets a call. Kevin is getting arrested for a DUI and their daughter is with him. Kevin is ready to kill him and Beth is game for it. Jack tells Randall that when one of them falls, another helps them up.

I thought Kevin was going to wreck the car. I actually was so worried about that. He’s a mess and I’m glad he got caught. Randall is the best part of this show. And Beth. She’s the real MVP. I loved that they knew they couldn’t keep Deja. I guess they are going to take in that little boy next.

This is Us, episode nine

Kevin is walking so Rebecca and Jack turn to number two. Kate. It’s her turn to walk. Adult Kate is talking to the baby and taking prenatal vitamins. She talks about the Flintstones and Toby.

Teenage Kate is listening to music when Jack blows a fuse. The dog panics and pees. She goes downstairs and gets some paper towels. Rebecca is prepping the cake for the Penn coach. She mentions the college list that Kate was supposed to make and suggests doing it together. Kate is not interested.

Adult Kate is making a list of questions to ask her doctor while Toby makes a smoothie. She reads the questions out to him and remembers she wanted to tell him about the baby tub that’s on the way. She goes to measure their tub to make sure it’ll fit. She screams for Toby.

They are in the emergency room as the doctor talks about what comes next. She lost the baby but they can try again. The doctor leaves and Kate asks Toby to step out so she can get dressed. She sits there alone and cries.

Back at home, things are quiet. Toby cleans up the smooths and puts away the list of questions. Kate is doing her makeup. She flashes back to the night before. The miscarriage. Toby is watching tv when Kate goes to leave. He’s confused. It’s been 12 hours and she is going to a gig. She heads out.

Rebecca knocks but Kate doesn’t answer. She has music blasting. Rebecca comes in and tries to have a talk about college and keeping her options open. Kate is offended and heads to school. Rebecca snoops and finds Kate’s audition tape for Berklee. She plays it.

At her gig, Kate has a meltdown. Toby goes to the package distribution center and tries to stop the baby bathtub from coming. Kate opts to walk home and stop at a buffet. During Kevin’s football game, Rebecca talks to Kate about her closing herself off and then about the tape. Something happens on the field. Kevin gets hurt. Kate runs to call Jack.

Kate fills her plate. Toby finds the baby bath and gives it to a truck driver. Then he goes to pick up Kate but she’s gone. He starts calling her and then he tries Kevin. Kate gets home and Toby is not there. He also threw out the shower curtain and rod.

Her phone rings. It’s her mother. She tells her that she lost the baby and then hangs up. She tries Kevin but gets no answer. Toby gets home and she gets nasty with him. He stands up for himself though. This might not have happened to him physically but it happened to him too and she should remember that.

The wait is on. Kevin is getting an MRI so Kate and Rebecca have a heart to heart about how they never were quite as close as Rebecca had expected them to be. Jack and Randall get to the hospital.

Morning dawns. Kate slept on the couch and Toby’s out when there’s a knock on the door. She answers it and finds her mother there. They hug and Kate starts to cry. They talk about fault and grief. Rebecca brings up the triplet that she lost. She tells Kate to talk to Toby and then tells her a story about a meltdown she had when they were newborns.

The Pearsons leave the hospital. Toby gets home so Rebecca steps out so that they can have a moment. Kate tells Toby that she feels like she failed him and that she wants to try again. He says they can whenever she’s ready. She gets the shower curtain out of the trash and they hang it back up. Next up. Randall

So Kate had a Buffy poster on her wall as a teen. That was distracting me. I felt bad for Toby but Kate had a point. I think he was more upset about being powerless than he was about the baby.